Sometimes I don’t want to. I don’t want to get up off the couch. I don’t want to play “Dora” with my toddler. I don’t want to help with homework. I don’t want to cook dinner. I don’t want to fold the laundry. I don’t want to go to the grocery store. Sometimes I just don’t want to. Today is the offering up of laziness, procrastination, idleness.
As moms we work hard. The job includes being on call 24/7. As I’ve been doing this for over 17 years, I have my moments of slackness. I’ve had my moments of throwing my hands up and screaming “I can’t do this anymore.” Whatever ‘this’ is… because it certainly doesn’t mean I want to quit being a mom or a wife. I love that this. I think it’s the this of the hard work required. I want the position and reward of being called mama. But some days, some moments, I just feel like I can’t possibly fulfill the requirements of the role. Maybe you do too.
What to do in those moments? Offer it up to Jesus. And accept grace. Grace to either fulfill the required task in this moment. Supper does need to be on the table in 30 minutes because we have church in an hour. Help me, Jesus. Or accept the grace to let that task go for now. Because sometimes laziness just means I need rest. Sometimes, idleness means that that laundry should wait for the more important moment of snuggling and watching a movie with my toddler.
I don’t deny my laziness, procrastinating heart or that I can be prone to idleness… I offer it up to Jesus and let Him show me what’s really going on and then accept the grace to change… either my actions… or my mindset.
***This is Day 20 of “31 Days of Offering Up” – part of the #write31days challenge. To read all the posts in order, please visit the overview page.***